dolphin in the sea

2009-06-10T16:51:00.003+08:00

updates

Woke up with blood flowing out of nose
Two consecutive days already
F*cked this sh*t

This may be my last post
Ever
Cause tomorrow
Is 11/06/2009
It matters alot
If by one week time
I'm not around
Someone will delete this blog
Thanks everyone
For being part of my life
Appreciate it very much
If you see someone like me
It may not be me at all
Don't jump to conclusion
Goodbye

There comes a time in your life when you realise who matters,who doesnt, who never did and who always will

So dont worry about the people from your past,theres a reason why they didnt make it to your future

2009-06-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

updates

God Lives In The Post Office

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words:

Dear God,

Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her. You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.

Love, Meredith
_________________________________

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, 'To Meredith , ' in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, 'When a Pet Dies.' Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:

_____________________________________

Dear Meredith,

Abbey arrived safely in heaven.

Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away.

Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog. Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by.

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you.

I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much.

By the way, I'm easy to find, I am wherever there is love.

Love,
God

_____________________________________

If it doesn't touch you
I don't know what will
It's so sweet
Hearing there are kind people around
May God bless you all

Taken from mrpositive.com
Positive impact it made
To me that is
Life is wonderful
Treasure it
Before you lose it
=)

2009-06-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

updates

That song
& this blogger's blog
Touches me real deep
If it doesn't touch you
You have no heart
So you prick can just f*ck off

Anyway,I don't know them
Kudos for hanging on
Through those shits

2009-06-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

dejavu,dejavu,dejavu,dejavu,dejavu

dejavu,dejavu,dejavu,dejavu,dejavu

updates

& yes
Dejavu it is
I dreamt of it
It came
Next thing come up
Is really bad
I mean
Really,really bad
It's a bad omen for God sake

& yes
I off my handphone
& it won't be on
I don't want to be disturb
You don't have to call anymore
Cause I won't pick up the phone

So for Sun
I went to attend "kenduri doa selamat"
At Tech Whye Lane
& I raced with WRX on my way home
I would accelerate more
If mum was not around
I have few seconds to think
Given the speed of 140km/h
Ultimately
I blew up the fuses
So some of the mechanism
Don't seemed to work
I'm sorry dad
It's my fault
I know you're disappointed

Well,I don't seem to appreciate
Appreciate the life given by God
I can corner my bike
Till I scrap my flip-flop
It was few days before she got stolen anyway
I can corner the car
Till it got out of lane
I don't know what else next
& I can laugh
When I got into an accident

I have this funny feelings
Going on
I don't know how to describe it
I guess people won't know
Will people remember the date
It will be approximately three more days
I guess not
So f*ck care & enjoy your life
Who am I anyway

2009-06-06T14:13:00.007+08:00

dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty
cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap

dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty
cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap
dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty
cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap

dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty
cheap,dirty,cheap,dirty,cheap

updates

That is the feeling
I will have if I have another relationship
Shan't elaborate more
People will misunderstand this sentence anyway
Whatever _|_

& jyeah
Someone in relationship coming to 2 yrs
Is flirting with me
Maybe,I'm being too friendly here
To keep her company
When she have problems
But I know my limits
It's time I back out
& keep things simple
Lest I become third party
I'm not so desperate anyway
& she's not my type too =)
Treasure it F*cker
Loose B*tch
Again,people will misunderstand again
Whatever lurhz (Y)

Saturday
Just came back from J.B
Pump petrol
Time check 1419hrs
Went in around 0900hrs
After sending daddy to work
Now,car all to myself
I need my sleep
I only slept at 0400hrs
Will be going out later at night

& Lastly
My current addiction
It's Kayla
She's cute,she's adorable
Please don't take her away from me =(
Take her friend,I don't mind =D
hahahaha
Sometimes,I just wonder if
"Falling Slowly"
That Kayla sang
Is actually meant for me
Sucker much
Bleah!

Just enjoy the songs jyeah
& the videos too
There's four of them
Don't miss anything out
Teeeheeeheee

2009-06-04T23:47:00.007+08:00

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Tell me people
Do those Silantra's people
Looked like typical "Mat Motor"
Stop judging Silantra's
Even if I'm not with them anymore
They are still there for me

So as usual
I change my blog song
It describe how I'm feeling right now
So first
Mad -Neyo
Jyeah,like usual
Someone broke my heart again
Well,been used to it
You all don't know right?
You don't need to know too
Let's keep it a secret anyway
Also,this song meant something
It was the 'sign'
Go figure anyway
It's so passe
ps: look at the video
I can sleep hearing her voice
The one wearing green shirt
Totally sweet,and her hair
I've a fetish for girls with that kind of hair
Okay,dream on Fir
You will never get anyone as close as that
Heh!

Secondly
F*ck you - Lily Allen
Jyeah,F*ck you all
So what if I'm pampered
I can have everything I want
My parents sponsor me everytime
Ever wondered why?
Atleast I deserved all that I want
I make them proud,real proud
By doing extremely well in my studies
All last minutes
Yes,I flunked alot of time
In the end
I ace it all
So study smart,
make your parents happy
Sure you get what you want
Anyway F*ck you again
=DDD

Friday
Will be driving Merc
Jyeah people
Mercedez Benz
& I have the car for myself
On Saturday
Book me people
& F*ck the rich n famous
F*ck me too

2009-06-03T23:22:00.003+08:00

updates

It's lady gaga
I used to not like her
Cause she look weird
But since watching Ellen show
I find Lady Gaga cute
Her attitude
Ish,I like very much
So adorable
OMG
I swear,I'll be delighted
If someone like her
Come into my life
She's 23 anyway

Anyway
I have my own tumblr website to rant
Why do I still go to blogger
Nevermind,cut to the chase
Everyday,I hear people saying
"I LOVE YOU"
to me
Fact is,I'm so accustomed to it
I no longer feel the meaning
I no longer know what's that
My heart has totally turn into stone
I don't have any feelings
Really
Try your luck?
You should just give up
I really mean it

& something in the past
Should not be brought up
I don't wish to know
How it happen
Why it happen
Regret or not
I don't give a damn
Ouh,really
It happens,so be it
Don't let it tie me down
I mean it
Like seriously
If only people would cooperate
=D

2009-06-02T14:02:00.005+08:00

Omega,Omega Oh
Ooh,Ooh
Omega,Omega Oh

updates

It wasn't like it used to be
Count me out
I've better things to see to

2009-05-31T02:57:00.007+08:00

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Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired
Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired
Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired
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Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired
Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired
Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired,Tired

Anyway
That is my new chat friend
Yuyul is her name
Not single & not available
Fir tidak cute yeeee
Yuyul yang cute okies

So Saturday
Went to City Hall to meet Skoot & Eri
The moment I step out of the car
M&M was walking past
& the Minah was looking at me all the way
Blueckz,Blueckz,Blueckz
So ate at Qiji
& met Nisha after that
& rooftop got lotsie couples romancing
hahahahahaha
So send Nisha's friend home 1st
Went to ECP
Send Nisha home
Went to eat at Tamp
Then send Eri home
Lastly home sweet home

Words for me on Saturday
"Fir,what's wrong?"
"Fir,don't be sad,sad
" -.-"

& Nisha
Don't sad,sad wokies
Just concentrate on your 'N'
It's more important than finding a partner
=)

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or least where the story goes
I never believed it until now
I know I'll see you again I'm sure
No it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday

I thought our days would last forever
But it wasn't our destiny
'Coz in my mind
We had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can believe me
I can still find the strength in
The moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

2009-05-30T17:22:00.004+08:00

updates

So much for giving relationship advice
When the relationship is rocky
HaHaHaHaHaHa
My toes are laughing

I didn't go club when I pass my license
To all the bitches that believe
HaHaHaHaHaHa

Friday,
Followed Aidil go j.b pump petrol
Then find yananana II
Instead of finding her
We got into a race instead
5 cheenah SP beng,1 cheenah KR kia
Lost to Aidil
HaHaHaHaHa
I was the pillion anyway

So for today,sat
Will be going to city hall at night
Will be driving
See you all later alligator

And guess what?
Someone gave me luv at tagged
***********; gave you Luv and it will last for 1 week

SHE GAVE ME LOVE
I'M SO TOUCHED
Okay,dah
=p

update again later
Tata

2009-05-29T15:00:00.002+08:00

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Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou
Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou,Imissyou

Okay,guess what
I feel like missing someone
But I don't know who
So jyeah,misses much

Been driving car the past 3 days
And I'm bored with it
If only there's time
I would want to take pilot licence
It's cheaper on the other side of the bridge
But guess not my luck

Saw a suspect of my stolen bike yananana II
Wow,speedometer white,rims also white
Like that,I need not spend money spraying
Please spray fairring white too
Then I'll whack you
Thanks
So much so for telling people you sold your bike
But what were you riding that night?
FR3919 eh???
See you later alligator
Shouldn't have helped you when you had the accident
F*cking chinese bastard
I'll whack you soon before I go

And I'm no longer part of Team Silantra
Jyeah
I am not
Thanks

And how do you tell someone
That the friend of few years is being a two face
I don't know
It's not my friend
If you think it's you,then you know lurhz
I hope you know who you are
Can ask for convo from me
I have the evidence
While stock last
*wink*wink*

So tomorrow saturday
Will be going to Orchard,City Hall,Vivocity
Jyeah
I don't know whose car I'm going to use
Pretty please
Make it available
And one last thing
I'm so good nowadays
I've no dates
hahahahaha

2009-05-25T19:48:00.004+08:00

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TEEPEE TOMORROW!!!
1:55pm
Wish me luck jyeah
Must pass,must pass,must pass

Chinese pussy are so the yummy
*Sluuuuurrrrppsssss*
*sluuuuurrrrpssssss*
Right skoot?
hahahahahahhaha
Still,I would like to be your spiderman
boohoohoo

continue at 10:36pm

Had a long talk with dad
Dad gave me this 'tangkal'
Told me to keep it with me
Told me to stay strong
Fight on till the end
Told me to pull it through
I really don't want that thing
Oh My God
What am I suppose to do now?
It's a 'tangkal' for god damn sake
I'm not in the f*cking mood now
Why do you have to use 'tangkal'?

DAD,I HATE YOU!!!

update for Tuesday,26/04

And so I'm lazy to start a new post

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I failed my teepee NOT
Pass with 14 demerit points
No thanks to the 'tangkal' okay
I did it all on my own
I think
Did the 'tangkal' helped in some way or the other?
Tell me,it's not

And yes
I got wishes from the unexpected people
And how about the ones I expect it
Truly such a disappointment
Thanks,nevertheless

Saw ex-schoolmate
And one of the chinese chick asked
"are you single"
Yes cutestuff,I am very,very
Hahahahahaha
Typical much

Anyway
See you people on the road again
Current ride
Toyota Corolla Altis
If I get pass 11 june
If god willing
Mazda III or Mazda rx 8
Teeeheee

2009-05-24T00:20:00.004+08:00

updates

How can you love someone in one day
Despo shits!
Hah!

Sun activate
Hah!
Activate and find my bike
Hah!
If it's meant to be
It will come back to me
Roll that bike jyeah
Cause I'll roll your head soon
Hah!

Stop disturbing me
You don't even understand me at all
Hah!

Lastly
Where are you crush?
Can I chat and get to know you soon?
Nyeeeeeh
hahahaha

Song is dedicated to all my previous dates
hahahahaha
Thanks for the dates
You all sucks big time anyway
LOSERS!

You had your chance,you blew it
Out of sight,out of mind
Shut your mouth,I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

2009-05-23T00:07:00.004+08:00

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I'm emo-ing
Will people remember me
Like people remember Rakinah?
Doubt so
Good night
Bye

*continued*

I think I have a crush on someone
Think so
She resemble someone
Stay around that someone
Should I or shouldn't I
Afterall,I'm afraid
Any comments?

2009-05-22T01:24:00.004+08:00

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I don't know
I'm confused
Why should I even apologised
Yes
People are disappointed in me
I changed
In short stipulated time
Why
Don't you people want to know why?
What
Don't you want to know what's the causes?
Who
Don't you want to know who am I now?
Where
Don't you want to know where I learn all these?
When
Don't you want to know when I started to become like this?

I bet you all don't
Cause in your eyes
I've changed,truly changed
So,what's for I need to explain myself
All I want is care and attention
But who cares anyway
You all have your own business to handle
Who am I anyway,I'm not related at all
You keep on thinking I've change for the bad
What causes it?
Nobody knows,nobody asked
Do you think I want this to happen?
Do you think I want this to happen?
Do you think I'm happy with the way I am now?
All is just an assumption
My fake personality
Nobody knows
Nobody define it
All just shelter the blame on me
Guess,it's better for me to be alone
Alone,secluded from the world

2009-05-21T11:04:00.006+08:00

updates

Back from chalet
I'm sorry,really sorry
But I shouldn't have said sorry
Cause I'm all alone,single
I can do what I want
Nobody is controlling me
I do not need to care about other's feelings
Cause there's no sense of attachment in anyone's heart

Jyeah,chalet was alright
It was supposed to celebrate a birthday
But I changed it since ...................
Partied all the way
Boozing all the way
Getting high and drunk
Got wasted
So much so for wanting to repent
Nyeeeeeeeh
Guess,my place in hell been booked
Club next week anyone?
Dbl 'O' or St James or Arena
Contact me fast
If I pass my car test on Tues
I'll drive on wed night
Party,party,party

Saw Yananana II again just now
She was turning and heading towards expressway
The rider looked as if that's his bike
Maciam best gitu yeee
One thing for sure
She's alright
Second thing for sure
I'm starting to hate those f*ckers
If only they were infront of me
I would surely chop them
They make me hate chinese
Like seriously
F*cking YP
Don't make me see you
The way you roll my bike
I'll make your pillion roll too
Trust me for that
Ex-matrep tetap ex-matrep
And If only I was in Team Phantom instead
I would go

"Duduk di jalan besar
Tengkorak mata merah
Eh Ah Eh Ah
Phantom Kia"

And I bored with social networking
Friendster,Tagged,Myspace,Facebook,Hi-5
Done it all
So anything else that can keep me entertained?
Going to delete all accounts soon
Jyeah

private blog again soon
=DDD

2009-05-19T11:24:00.005+08:00

Song currently playing
Three cheers for five years
By Mayday Parade

updates

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
*NUR KHIRIANA BINTE KHIRUDIN BIN YUSSOF*
Which is on 20th of May
Ard 2am - 5am
Can't remember the timing you told me
Must wish you by that timing
Cause it's originally when you're born
But
I'll not be here to update by then
So here's an advance post

Finally,you've grown up
Enjoy your day
Be happy-happy always
No more tears in your eyes please
Never again
Hope you excel in everything you do
And get into polytechnic atleast
And have a good future ahead
Lastly please,last warning
NO FUNNY FACES OKAY
=)

Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To Yana
Happy Birthday To You

This year,I'm not the one singing it for you

2009-05-18T00:11:00.004+08:00

updates:

Today
Two months of singlehood
Not in the mood
Don't bother me
Thanks

Girls
Once you blew it
There gone the chance
Taking care
May we see each other again

Know yourself by Birth Date!

If you were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
If you were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month you are number 2.
If you were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month you are number 3.
If you were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month you are number 4.
If you were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
If you were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
If you were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
If you were born on the 8th, 17th, 26th of a ny month then you are number 8.
If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, frank, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, friendly, and authoritative. Famous person always want to be and regarded as first on position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self
confident people! You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get married when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy, you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous issues!! But make sure in your life, you will always have some people who will work hard to support. Because of your smart behavior, you will be hated by some people too. Your family life is very cool; you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children. You are Pioneer, Independent & Original.
Your best match is 4, 6, 8 good match is 3, 5, 7.

Number 2
No matter what, you will be loved by every one because your ruler is the Moon and every one loves the Moon, huh!! Well, you are a person who daydream a lot. You have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life. You are very much unpredictable means you do change according to time and circumstances. Selfish and have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, and verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon comes to Gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who is peace loving or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the mankind and peace. I mean in the community and your own home. If you really have a deep thought about your own, believe in God, you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening. True! You can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, or any artistic business people! You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry. If you are a girl, you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If you are a man, you will involve in fights and arguments in the family or vice-versa. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced people!!!
Your best match is 2, 5, and 9 no other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3
You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious,loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything. You have strong word power, pretty happy face, so
wherever you go, you always have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth you
always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something. You will not get anything
without hard work! When you reach a Man/Woman age, you want other younger listen to you because you want younger people to respect older people. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you re not a cool person. It’s not easy dealing with you! But once you like someone’s attitude, then here you go. It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but they won’t be long. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love money a bit too much so
temptation will push you to endless trying. If you are a guy, you will be looking after your family and helping friends, and will spend a life time just being generous and (except 21st born Men) you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl, then it’s your good character and hardworking attitude you always follow. You are a Freedom Lover,Creative Ambition focused who brings Beauty, Hope & Joy to this world!!!
Your best match are 6, 9. Good match are 1, 3, 5.

Number 4
You are very stubborn and very hard working. You have rough word power which might put lots of people away from you. You may cause nuisance to others if you are a man. You often understand others well and their problems. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are guy you spend most of the time after girl friends. You will have fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don’t know what to do, so be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!! Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart and beware of your relations too. You are practical, patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned.
You best matches are 1, 8. Good matches are 5, 6, 7.

Number 5
You are very popular within the community. You can get things done by just chatting to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind. You are someone who acts on impulse. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc. Very popular with sense of humor, you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends!! You will have more than 1 relationship, but when you get settle down you will be a bit selfish. Anyway, because your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you. Be careful you tend to go for other relationships/contacts even you are married at times because of your popularity. You are someone who gets along with anyone because the number 5 is the middle number. You like changes and freedom. You are an Explorer with Magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it’s your Best Teacher!!!
Your best matches are 1, 2, 9. Good matches are 6, 8.

Number 6
You are born to enjoy. You don’t care about others, you always want to enjoy your life time. You are a person. You will be very good in either education or in business management! You are talented, kind (but only with people who you think are nice), beautiful girls and guys. Popular and more than lucky with anything in their Lives. All the goodness does come to you. The mind and body is just made perfect. If you are a number 6 man, you will experience looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get marry!!! If you are girl, most of them will get marry/ engage early. You are caring towards your family and friends. You are a person of Compassion, Comfort & Fairness, Good judgment, and after all you can heal this world to make peace forever because you have great power of caring.
Your best matches are 1, 6, 9. Good matches are 4, 5.

Number 7
You have got the attraction to anyone out there. You are realistic, confident, happy, a talented individual in your Education, Music, Arts,Singing, and most importantly Acting. You have real problems with bad temper!! If you are girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above, you give up things for your parents, I mean you value your family
status a lot. You will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age! If you are a guy, you are popular with girls. You are a very talented too! Most of the number 7s faces lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy!! It’s probably the Lord give you all sort of humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life, so you need to get
ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you might end-up single!!! You are wonderful, Friendly, Artistic, Happy person. You are born to contribute lot to this world!!!
Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4.

Number 8
You are a very strong personality, there’s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing!!! You are more likely to suffer from the early age poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parents and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems
will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way!!! You are the one will fight for justice and may die in the wartoo!!! You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time, live life lonely and always prepared to help. Well, once you get marry (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit, then you become safe. Beware of un-expected problems from the terror, government, poisonous animals & accidents. You are someone with discipline, persistence, courage which will take you to the success!! You are a great part of a team, family and a fighter!!!
Your Best matches are 1, 4, 8. Good match is 5.

Number 9
Hey, you guys are the uncompatible people in the world, you are so strong, physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there, normally you suffer in the early age from family’s problems and generally you will have fighting life, but when you achieve what you have done, it’s always a big-task!! You are so much respected in the community. You are a person who can make a challenge and successfully
finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents, and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time, but when you grow, you become calm and macho type!!! Tell you what, love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you! Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your qualities are humanitarian, patient, quick witted & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice! You are totally a Role Model to everybody in the world for a Great Inspiration!!!
Your best matches are 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match is 2.

This group can tell u ur character by a simple way of calculation but it is not 100% accurate , here it is : 4 ex if ur birth date is : 1982/8/15
u r gonna add all the numbers like that : 1+9+8+2+8+1+5=34
then u will add the result : 3+4=7
then ur character no. is 7
another ex : 1982/8/10
1+9+8+2+8+1+0=29
when u add 29: 2+9=11
u will get 11 so u will add the 11 : 1 + 1 =2
n.b : if ur result is 2 digits keep adding the 2 digits till it becomes 1 digit.
but do this way of calculation with ur own birth date.
let's say ur character is no.7 u will go and check what is written in character no.7 and here are the characters:

character no.1: u r independent and u have pride of ur character,u have ur own opinions and u r a leader by nature, u luv 2 participate in everything and u leave a strong impression 4 everyone u meet. u have a strong willing and u don't like the indirect ways . u love adventures and challenges and u never run away from any problem that faces u . in work u r prefered 2 be in the position of a leader for ur ability of encouraging every1 around u but be aware of arogance .

character no.2 : u love helping others and u feel with them , u don't look for grabbing attention and u understand the people around u. u r very kind and u have an amazing ability of calming people down and solving problems. and bec. u r a cooperative person working in a team is the best for u but ur weakness point is u can't make or take decisions on ur own

character no.3: sociable , open minded, and love life so much that's what u r. u r the soul of the parties , u r sociable and very cheerful u love having fun and as always u r the center of attention.u have a lot of creativity and imagination so u r always attracted to media and art.u were born lucky so u got a lot of good luck and money.because of ur optimistic nature sometimes u r a little bit irrational.

character no.4: u r a serious and balanced person.u take life seriously but u r very true u r also realistic and u can handle responsibilty . u r never tired of hard work. u don't have creativity but u have a strong sense of realism. u r very organized but u r a very stubborn person which is problem.

characterno.5: u have such an incredible intelligence. u have the ability to learn new informatios and skills quickly.u r always thinking which makes u incapable of resting but it comes with an advantage because u r adaptable to any circumstances and creative. u r life is in continuous motion. u love adventures and risk but u r lucky bec. u come out of it safely.

character no.6: u are a responsible,devoted and trustable person bec. of ur genuine qualities . u can make others respect u well as u respect others.u are the suitable person for taking care of the family house as ur happiest moments are when u are surrounded by ur family.

character no.7: mysterious , intelligent and self closed are from ur qualities. u are always amazed by the way everything works and how situations happen and how people think.u like to know what happened and then analys it so u are usually specialized in one section which makes u attracted to jobs that require high level of brilliance or intelligence. u can be described as perfection in everthing , u care about quality more than quantity in everything and u try 2 be more forgiving.

character no.8: true and practical , u have big motives for life : financial ease , safety and stability are main factors for ur happiness so u are ready to work day and night to reach the level u want. u r very organized and u r very self confident , u have high management skills which attracts u to the world of managing and business . u are the luckiest number.

character no.9: u r very optimistic , enthusiastic and creative. ur character attracts everyone around u because of its warmth. u have great appetite for life and u wanna try everything in it . u r a teacher by nature and u love to share ur knowledge and wisdom with every1 else. others take u as a role model to them but be sure to fufill ur promises

New song
Not uploaded yet
Can't find the song
It's called
Colourblind - Darius Danesh
Should listen to it

Feeling blue
When I'm trying to forget the feeling
That I miss you

Feeling green
When the jealousy swells and it won't
Go away in dreams

Feeling yellow
I'm confused inside a little hazy but mellow
When I feel your eyes on me

Feeling fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind
You make me colourblind

Feeling red
When you spend all your time with your friends
And not me instead

Feeling black
When I think about all of the things that
I feel I lack

Feeling jaded
When it's not gone right
All the colours have faded
Then I feel your eyes on me

Feeling fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind
You make me colourblind

Blinded by the light you shine
The colours fade completely
Blinded by you everytime
I feel your smile defeat me
I'm colourblind
I just can't deny this feeling

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind
your the light
your the light
when i close my eyes
You make me colourblind

your the light
your the light
when i close my eyes
you make me colorblind

your the light
your the light
when i close my eyes
i'm colorblind


nobody told me it feels so good

2009-05-16T11:50:00.007+08:00

Once I said
" I don't understand why bikers like to speed and ride recklessly
All of them are stupid and want to die young
And if I were to ride a bike, I would ride safely and stay within the speed limit"
Here i am now, eating my own words,
and trying to remember if i was high on drugs when i said that

updates

If one day
I would to be wrapped up like that
Would anyone even remember me
When time pass by
Would anyone think of me

"You always thought I was stronger"

I was weak from the very start
I don't know what's happening to me
The past kept haunting me
I can't sleep,I can't even think
It's like keep on repeating
It hurts so much
Deep down
I just wish that
I won't be able to feel anything
Soon

My heart hurts everyday
Not those heartbreak hurts
But really the piercing hurts physically
Breathing have become more difficult
A short walk tires me out
I feel like fainting sometimes
But I've to hold on
I don't know what's happening to me
God,bless this shit

Moving on
Car test is another 10 more days
I've the urge to drive
Seriously,drive around
Get on the road
Race through traffics
For the thrill and excitement
I hope to pass soon

Lastly
I'm not as what you expect me to be
I'm not and will not be good enough for anyone
I just hope everyone will move on
Find someone better
I'm sorry
I really can't do it

2009-05-15T01:38:00.004+08:00

updates:

New song added again
How do you sleep - Jesse McCartney
No comment or anything

I'm really pissed off today
Like seriously
I came home
Tired and fatigued
Checked my Tagged
And guess what I found?
Someone commented me this

"hellos typical malay... thanks for the add iyeahhh.. suke nah posing dgn moto nyerrr. kononnye cute la tuhh.but ure cute laahh cause u got baby face. WELL,NEW FRINDS ARE WELCOME! *winks*"

What do you mean by that?
Do I know you long enough?
That you can comment me like that?
You think you are f*cking cool
By giving that type of comment
If you're pretty
It's okay BITCH
But you aren't
You're just a slut
Waiting for men's cum
On your powdery face
Full of make-up
URGH!!!
I'm really pissed off
By these type of stupid arsehole

Even if you mean it in another way
Please,for goodness sake
Rephrase your sentences
You suck to the core

Tried my best at moving on
Have yet to find a girl like you
See things now I didn't before
Now wishing I had more time with you

If I had my way come and getcha girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

2009-05-14T15:43:00.002+08:00

updates

New song added
Alasanmu - Exists
I've been loving it since sec 3
Gosh,freaky much
It's been 4 years now

I'm really fatigue
I'm really tired
Of all the nonsence
All the stupid stuff
Why I have to make others happy
When I,myself have to fake a smile
Everytime,everywhere
Why people never realise
Behind my smile,I'm hiding something
I can't put up this brave front anymore
I'm just afraid as anybody are
Everynight,I've phobia sleeping
Nobody knows,nobody asked
Thanks

For two consecutive days
I choked on water
Did someone,anyone spoke ill of me?
Or thinking of me randomly?
Or am I just pretending?
What is happening to me?
Sometimes,I feel as if my throat smell like bleach
Am I paranoid much?
Sometime,I feel lots of air going inside my throat
It's too much
I really can't take this anymore

I'm not asking for any sympathy
All I want is someone
Someone able to just tiny winy understand me
Cheer me up
But no one does
Not now that is
Guess,I've to cheer up myself
How,where,when?
Don't ask me
You don't need to know
It's not as if you all care or what
Thanks

2009-05-14T00:18:00.004+08:00

updates

Cool Super 4 spec II
Big bike with big engine
With faster speed
Will I get my hand on her?
What would I name her?
Will I even get the chance?
Will I have races with her?
I hope I will
I'm not confident of it
I'm not sure of the outcome
Let God decide my fate

Saw yananana II
I think,I feel it's her
It's so overwhelming
She went bypass me
A chinese guy with a girl pillion
Wore white helmets
Wanted to chase
But it sped off right infront of me
Went to search at night
But to no avail
I'll whack that person to death
If anything happens to my baby
Get that right
Baby,you're so far yet so near
I miss you so damn much
Tell me you do too

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give our dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

2009-05-12T11:18:00.003+08:00

updates

That's what I call a racer bike
Iman's baby last two weeks
Atleast there's something to prove
Other than people who just gotten their license
Want to show off and whack bike
Ride dangerously,beating red light
Soon,your beloved bike will be like that
Or worse

Another SP stolen yesterday
Great,just great
Good luck

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

2009-05-11T20:34:00.008+08:00

updates

Search for yananana II using the latest lead
Last parked at 688A admiralty on 28/04
Went there,it was a block,not a carpark
Search the entire neighbourhood
Combed six carparks in total
From level one till the upper most level
Found nothing,was in vain
Went forum again to search
Total 9 SP lost this year
One culprit caught was a heavily tattoo-ed Ah Beng
It's okay,it's alright
Once I know who's the culprit
Make sure you going to meet your makers aite
Make sure you parents have enough money
To buy jossticks and paper money
To see thru hell
♥~~AGEMO~~♥

I miss you,I miss you,I miss you
Say you miss me too please
Why are most girls the same?
Can't I not go to school temporarily?
You sound like my grandma for goodness sake
Too bad,she died before I was born

I hate suckers
Like really
How can you fall in love in just one day?
You just suck nevertheless
♥BITCH♥

Fact is
I miss racing
The high speed and corners
I miss it all
Spend 1K plus doing engine
3K on the bike itself
Now turned to dust

2009-05-10T00:58:00.008+08:00

updates:

You took my life, turned it around

And put my feet back on the ground
I owe you, eternally

I hate desperate people
Like seriously
I hate people clinging on to me
I need my sleep
I hate late nights phonecalls
With no topic to talk about
I hate feeling nothing
But just come up with excuses
To make people feel better
I'm bad,I'm so like the rest
It's better to drift
Lest feelings take control
And hurts are inevitable

I learned one thing from my previous relationships
It's with an 'S' idiots
We human are selfish lot
We should pursue our own happiness
Nevermind about others who care about you
It's what you're feeling
"Never leave someone you love for someone you like"
Heard of that qoute
It makes sense somehow

Why should I go for someone who is a total turnoff?
Farted in the train on second meeting
It's like a total gross

Lari, lari, lari
Aku lari tingalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari, cari
Ketenangan diri

Pergi, pergi, pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu

Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakahnya dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya yang tersembunyi
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

Mengapa
Aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas, rimas aku rimas

Tell me I know
That feelings don't show
You rejected my friend
When he loves you so
Do you think it's fair
Do you even care
That the guy you rejected
Feels really dejected right now

2009-05-09T23:15:00.004+08:00

updates

Please do not mind the background
I miss school,I miss classmates
I miss people,I miss my bike
I miss everyone and everything
Will people even remember me one day?
Or will I just vanish into dust?
Where is everyone when I need them?
Who am I suppose to turn to?
Are we suppose to just share happiness
And be alone in time of needs
Where's the care and concern I need?
I feel so down
I'm not in the mood

My heart really disappoint me time and again
It keeps aching out a sudden
So much for lead about my bike
No calls from my IO or anything
Seeing my friends getting their bikes
Makes me feel jealous
Peer pressure much?
I miss riding,I miss playing on the road
I miss getting into accidents time and again
That's when I get care and concern I need
Nobody is listening to me right now
So when am I suppose to vent out my feelings?

Car test is roughly around 16 days
A mere 16 days
I'm not prepared nor am I ready
I'm afraid,afraid of failure
Will I get my license soon?

New song added
Salam rindu - Tipe-X
Hear it,it's nice
Dedicated or not
It's up to you to guess

2009-05-09T01:08:00.004+08:00

Updates:

I've been deleting blogs everytime
I don't know why
Maybe,it's just me
So,let's me introduce about my life bit by bit

The scars
It was done on 10/02/2008
It got six stitches
Scars still remains
I was naive back then
But I did not regret what I've done

Then I got to know a beautiful young girl
It went on for 11 months though
But still,whatever happens
I did not blame her for anything
She's the god damn best thing that happen in my life
I do regret that she's no longer in my life
Sometimes I do miss her
But life have to go on jyeah
The blog songs are dedicated to her
*smile*

So moving on
Been going on dates
Some was a total turnoff
While some,I'm sorry that I didn't feel anything
I don't rush for any relationship
Cause I believe in
"Good thing takes time"

I lost my bike recently
I miss her terribly
I named her yananana II
I won't change the name no matter what
It's been 10 days she went missing
Got some lead,investigations still going on
I hope to see her soon
Before I go away

So update for today
Which is Friday,8th of May
Went to fetch sweetheart♥ at NYP
Who is she anyway?
I used to have an infatuation on her
During secondary school days
But I let it go cause someone was being a busybody
So plan for the day was
NYP - HER HOME - BUKIT BATOK - YISHUN - WOODLANDS - HER HOME - HOME SWEET HOME
So sorry that I didn't talk much
My heart was wrenching when we ate at BBQ Chicken
Remembering the memories at Downtown outlet
I'll promise you that I'll try to get over it soon
And my friends aren't matrep or mat rempit wokies
They are such a goodie,goodie like me
Thanks

School send warning letter
Stated I didn't attend classes
What a great school I have
Will attend it soon
Only for a short term
Lastly,18 more days till Car TP test
Hope I pass yaw